… Or The Highs and Lows of Being a Serious Photographer …
Originally published December 2014, Updated April 2024
“I hate my work!” or … “OK, I got my shot! I’m happy.”
“I can’t seem to get anything right,” or … “It was one of those really ‘on’ days.”
“Should I quite photography?” or … “I am having my first real exhibition!”
These and others are the highs and lows of any good photographer. Of any artist in any medium, for that matter.
Creativity involves both elation and frustration. If you don’t question your work, you are not pushing yourself to ever improve.
If you want to be static, don’t be an artist, but it is that continual quest to explore new ways of doing things, fraught with the attendant highs and lows, that keeps us artists going.
Running workshops as I do, I see a lot of both ends of the spectrum. Barefoot Contessa Photo Adventures has a day that is sometimes called Turdy Tuesday (formerly Sh** Tuesday). For many people, because arI am throwing so much at them, they have to take two steps back before they can move three steps forward.
This is normal in the learning process. Taking those two steps back usually means we are processing new ways of seeing or approaching our subjects. If we were all the same, it would be boring; so this is a good thing, even though it may not seem so at the time. Whether in a workshop or on your own, each of us as an artist should be challenging ourselves in order to move forward.
For example, I love photographing water. I grew up sailing along the New England coast and elsewhere, camping along wilderness streams and rivers, so water is part of my life. I keep looking for new ways to present water. This time, I wanted to capture the patterns that exist in flowing water.
Some locations lend themselves to the grand scene, others to the more intimate one. If we work, we should be able to do both. But how to get there?
In the grand-scene area, sometimes it is hard to simplify and isolate what you want. Try starting with a small scene and work up bit by bit.
In the above situation, what I wanted was small, but I didn’t see it right away this time; so, I started with a larger scene and worked my way down.
I have been experimenting with patterns, something I have always loved. Arnie and I were in Las Vegas, scouting for a BCPA Does Vegas photo workshop. Las Vegas is a lot about color and shapes. Many of the buildings have great lines and patterns, but so what. For this next one, I used motion to create a different effect, taking the image out of the realm of reality into abstract.
In this example from last night, I did a number of tries before I found the speed and angle that worked for me. Testing, testing, testing until I got what I wanted.
There were other attempts that quite simply did not work out. Instead of being discouraged, I persevered. Not everything is going to come out the way you want, but if you don’t experiment and take yourself out your comfort zone, you will never know what you might have gotten.
Walking through one of the hotels, Arnie was struck by the mystery surrounding a person in a tunnel, not knowing what really was in front nor what was behind. Before he died, he was always experimenting with different types of “mystery” scenes.
As we were coming back to our room from dinner with long-longtime friends one night, Arnie and I both stopped at this location. I twisted the camera this way and that, changing position, sometimes by a mere inch or two, until I found what I wanted. I made just two images, both of which I really love. Arnie paid me the supreme compliment that this would look really great blown up in a print.
Even Arnie and I, who have spent all (in Arnie’s case) and most (in mine) of our lives as successful working photographers, run into frustrations.
“I didn’t get anything today I liked.”
“Stupid camera!” (a joke, since it is about us, not the camera)
But then, there are the good ones. We liked all the above. Will everyone else? No, of course not.
Check out The Daybooks of Edward Weston who wrote a daily account of his life as a photographer. Always questioning, sometimes in despair, sometimes positive, he was an artist who gave us a glimpse into the mind of an artist. It should be required reading for all artists.
So, push yourselves, and be prepared to be frustrated at times, but also allow yourself to be elated at others. Experiment and be willing to “fail.” Who knows what that might bring? In fact, check out my blog on Making “Mistakes”.
Be hard on yourself, but not so hard that you never allow yourself successes — those highs that balance the lows we all experience in our art.
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I can relate to all of those feelings as well as add my own. Often, when I’m around other photographers, I wonder, why can’t I make images as evocative or interesting or imaginative as his or hers? I feel a sense of inadequacy and have to fight it to keep looking and trying to see in a different way. And I still don’t have the confidence to enter anything where my work could be judged. Stupid camera, dumb lens, silly tripod, whatever, it’s all about my choices, which I see as inadequate. Boy, do we beat ourselves up, or what?!
Mary,
Your additions are so true, too. But keep on clicking to make ever-better photographs.
Take care, and thanks for your comments,
TBC
I so enjoy “hearing” your words that put some of my experiences in such a wonderful and ever hopeful light. You are an artist with words as well as imagery.
I have been on a water quest these last few months. I have a couple of ones that finally worked for me.
Many blessings and patient shooting.
Suzanne
Suzanne,
I am so happy to hear that my words spoke to you.
Keep on your own quest, and keep photographing.
Take care,
TBC
Great blog, Margo, and also thanks for sharing the really nice images; I particularly liked the mystery person behind the water.
I am happy to say that I’ve had more elation than frustration in 2014. This year, I’ve been inspired by so many friends who are serious photographers as well as people who really appreciate good photography.
I would like to thank YOU and Arnie for your guidance, and everyone I met at the BCPA workshops. I really can see my own progress. All of you have inspired me to do better [although some of you could probably tone down a bit during critique sessions – No, I’m just kidding; fyi, I plan to bring bullet-proof vest to my next workshop 🙂
Anonymous Alum,
Thanks for writing. Arnie was really happy with that person obscured by the water.
It is great to hear that the elations have outweighed the frustrations, and that you can chart your own progress as a photographer. Arnie and I could not wish for more from any of our alumni.
Take care, and thanks for writing,
TBC
Great blog post, and glad to hear it’s not just me! hahaha!!! The book looks interesting too –thank you for the recommendation.
DeAnne,
The problem with artists is that they are so often loners. Being loners, they work in a vacuum. And being in a vacuum, they do not realize they are not alone in their frustrations and elations.
Take care, and thanks for commenting,
TBC
Love this post!!! Been feeling extremely frustrated lately and unmotivated. I am definitely going to get the Edward Weston book. I don’t feel so alone now.
That’s the thing, M./Mme. Anonymous,
We artists all suffer the same frustrations, and hopefully elations. Hang in there. Do not feel alone. And you will love Edward Weston’s Daybooks.
Take care, and thanks for writing,
TBC
My dog, Anka, was helping me bring in a wheelbarrow load of wood. She started biting the tire and I gave her the command “AahAah”(sp). She turned to me and said “You sound like Margo”.
Jim,
LOL! But as you know, no one can really make “that noise” !!! Perhaps spelled Eah, Eah. Hard to spell in our language what is an uncommon sound!
Take care,
TBC
“Creativity involves both elation and frustration. If you don’t question your work, you are not pushing yourself to ever improve.” – Excellently said, Margo! I love the images!
Thanks, Sandra. Glad you love the images, too!
Take care,
TBC
Wow. ‘Nuff said.
Bill,
A BIG smile back at you and all the others!
Take care,
TBC
Amen! Thanks for reminding me of this, Margo. You know I can be hard on myself… But, you also know that (with your help and Arnie’s help), I’ve been able make some breakthroughs and to accept those Turdy moments and days… By the way, as usual, sweet images!
Fran,
I am so glad it struck a chord with you. You are not the only one who can be hard on him/herself.
Keep on improving. We love watching your work grow.
Take care, and thank you for commenting. It is hard to write in a vacuum when people say nothing.
TBC